Chapter 20
Cat Mendoza-
The sound of people talking filled the small quaint café as my eyes darted between the cup of herbal tea in front of me. The comfort associated with the environment has a way of soothing me most of the times, but not today. Enrique was opposite of me, his black coffee right in front of him he looked at me straight in the eye.
You have been very still for a long time Cat,” he said at last, putting down his cup. “Spill it. What are you hiding from me?”
I fidgeted in my chair a little bit, and surreptitiously placed my hand on my belly “I really don’t know how to begin.”
Then let me start with, why did you call me here?” Enrique feigned and reclined back on his chair.
I paused for a second, glancing around the cafe to see if anyone would be within earshot. I whispered softly. “I slept with Alexander again.”
Enrique said nothing to that. He just stared at me in his typical nonchalance, before simply bobbing his head in agreement. “Okay. And?”
“What do you mean by okay and?” I asked confused “Didn’t you bear me? I slept with Alexander once a
again?”
“I heard you the first time, honey” he answered taking a sip of his coffee while I looked at him with my mouth hanging open.
“And, you aren’t shocked?” I asked.
“Shocked? Why would I feel shocked? It’s not like you have slept with that sexy hulk for the first time and I knew that you both will end up sleeping eventually because of the undeniable chemistry you both share! he replied in a usual tone of his and continued.
“You want to know what I am shocked about? That it took you two days to have sex with him, when I thought you both will be ripping one another’s clothes the moment you step in the penthouse the other day after our apartment dilemma. Now, tell me what’s the problem because I don’t see any problem over here.”
Looking down at my tea, the words then stuck in my throat.
“I feel guilty. About Laila. About everything. It’s like whenever he is close to me, I just get drown into him, and then aft that, the sensation suffocates me. He doesn’t but this guilt about Laila suffocates me while Alexander makes me feel alive.”
“Cat, Enrique said, tightly but gently. “You cannot continue keep on grieving for something that happened in the past. You are not a villain for chasing after your heart–and your wants. You are an adult lady, and Alexander is also a grown–up man What you did wasn’t wrong.”
I let out a deep breath, and then shook my head. “It’s not that simple. Laila is my best friend. How can I look her in the eye knowing that I–I am sleeping with her father? I feel like I am betraying her.”
“Wait! You are betraying her? How the hell are you betraying her She is the one who betrayed you with your douchebag ex- boyfriend Jerry mouse. You know I hate mouses as I am a cat person, but whatever.
The point is you are not betraying Laila in anyway. Damitt, she I suppose your ex–bestfriend now, so go and sleep with her father all you want. Hell, become her stepmother as it is going to be so much fun.” he laughed as he said the last line about becoming her stepmother
“Enirque, be serious!” I growled “I am already so worried, don’t say the stepmother word please as it doesn’t make me feel any less better.”
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“Okay, what I am trying to say is that whatever you and Alexander do is none of her concern.” he sighed “All I can see is that you are complicating things”
“How am I complicating things, Enrique? I am stating the facts. Have you got any idea how will Laila react when she finds our that I am pregnant by her father’s baby? In the end, she is her father’s daughter.
Alexander will choose her in the end over me, so why complicate things by sleeping with him? Alexander just wants me because I am a convinient fuck for him who has got young pussy, That’s all He is caring about me now because I am pregnant with his child, once this child is born, Alexander won’t even dare to look at me and you know it”
Enrique’s eyes seemed to warm and he leaned forward.
“You’re carrying a life, Cat. The fact is, that is not a shameful thing to experience. Here’s the thing, babe, you can’t keep on doing this to yourself. You must decide about what you want. Not what Laila might think. Not what Alexander wants. What you want.” he said, squeezing my hand “But, no matter what. You will always find me by your side.”
I turned my face, when my eyes started to tear up.
“I don’t know what I want. After enjoying the time with him, the haze of passion makes me realize how entangled everything
is.”
are.” Enrique stated more to the point, “Because you have your head buried up there.” “Alexander isn’t. He knows what he wants–you. And he’s not ashamed of it. But you… you keep feeling guilty, you know it’s there and it is consuming you.
Just think, he is not ashamed to be with you, when he should be since Laila is his daughter, while to you, Laila is just a friend well ex–friend actually. Don’t you think he has a lot lose more than you?
But still he is standing up
you have already lost both you, because he really does care about you, Cat. You are going to lose a friend, a friend that
to be with you.”
of her own deeds, but Alexander? He will not lose a friend but his daughter and yet he wants
I swallowed hard unable to say anything in return because I know every word he is saying it right.
“Listen to me,” Enrique went on. “Don’t sleep with him again until you are certain your heart will not betray you afterward. That is pot fair to either of you. As in the end, you both are going to burn if keep on acting like this without clearing things up and making sure that you both stand on the same path together”
I gazed at him squarely; his coarseness momentarily stunned me. “What if I don’t want that anymore? You think I should just stop! That should I just stop sleeping with him?”
“I am not asking you to stop, I am just asking you to take a break from it until you truly know what you desire. Enrique said. “First of all, figure out how you feel about him, about yourself about this baby. And when you are ready–really ready- then only you will know as to what you are going to do”
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1 slowly shook my head, digesting his words. “What if somehow never stop feeling guilty afterwards?”
“Then maybe he is not for you,” Enrique said straightforward. “Yes, I have the hunch that is not true. You just need to get out of your own way because something tells me you both are made for one another.”
“You know it is impossible. Alexander is old enough to be my father, Enrique. I said rolling my eyes “So, we both are not made for one another.
“And, like I said the other day that he might be old enough to be your father, but he is not your father.” he reminded his words from our club night “Besides, I am sure you don’t think or feel about his age when he is fucking you, right? So, he is nothing but a man you are allowed to date, have sex and have baby with.”
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I gawked at him while my thoughts began to whirl. You may make it sound that simple.”
“No, it isn’t,” said Enrique the last drop of coffee in his cup. “But nothing that is worth while ever is.”
When he got up he put his hand on my shoulder and said, “No matter what you choose, Cat, it has to be your choice. Not guilt. Not fear. Just you. I will see you later now, as I have somewhere to be that requires my urgent attention. Have a good luck and goodbye until next time. Love you, honey”
“Love you too, Enrique and thanks for everything I thanked him. He smiled, winked at me and left, leaving me juggling with my thoughts. Just then my phone rang flashing Laila’s number, making me gulp.
“He…Hello, Laila.” I spoke after answering the call.
“Oh, thank God! I didn’t think you will pick up my call,” she said, in a tone of relief “Cat, can we talk? I just miss you so much and don’t think I can do this.”
“Do what?” I asked “Fuck my boyfriend. Sorry, let me rephrase, my ex–boyfriend?”
“Cat, I don’t know how to expla… I cut her off, after gaining some strength.
“I am sorry. Laila. You and I aren’t friend any longer so whatever that is you can’t do. Figure it out yourself as I can’t bring myself to talk to you without forgetting that you betrayed me with the man I love. Goodbye. I snapped and ended the call and threw on the cash for the bill and headed to Alexander’s office. He and I, need to have a talk.
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